Writer’s Block

“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”

—Ernest Hemingway

Too often have I neglected to write because I was stuck in my logical mind. I’ve found myself entangled in the futility of seeking answers and explanations: “Why is everything this way? Why is it that way?” I find myself asking.

When instead I need only to dip my toes in the stream, get my feet wet and become completely engrossed in what God is doing. Life is a stream. It is flowing into a greater existence that I call “The heart of God.” We need only to stay in the flow. How simple is that really?

We need to remember to breath and return to the elementary principles of just existing in gratitude. This stream called life flows seamlessly on, whether or not I am flowing with, and I do not wish to miss a glimmer of its beauty.

Flowing Vs. Forcing

I am naturally a rule follower…a religious person. However, instead of fiddling around with rigid religious principles I’ve challenged myself to look up and remember that God is smiling at me through the clouds and embracing me in the wind. I’ve challenged myself to remember that Christ is expressing himself through all this beauty. He is not doctrine. He is freedom. I do not need to brainwash myself with principles. I need only to open.

And lo. The block is gone. My heart is open and I am free to return to my origin. I am completely emptied of everything and I yield myself entirely to my maker so that I may bleed his heart on paper. I was created to be inspired, not to have my voice suppressed by blockage.

This is how I write. And hopefully, this will be how I live.

To my readers,

I am wishing you ultimate freedom to create and be inspired.

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Guided Journaling Session 3

In this episode of journaling, we write a letter to ourselves, with the intent of creating a time and space to fill ourselves with those things that we innately seek in others. A good relationship with ourselves is the beginning of balanced, healthy interdependent relationships with others!

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Filling Our Cups-Podcast Attached

Just a few days ago, I found myself right back in in-patient at Methodist Hospital’s psychiatric unit because of a mental relapse. It was was a bit overdue speaking in terms of keeping with my previous trends. Depression, rooted in the deep shock of the times, mixed with the chaos of inherited genes, overcame me like a tidal wave halting even the most stable of boats overboard, and I found myself suicidal. I could hardly resist the impulse. So in an effort to save my own life, I turned myself in.

I’m only cutting to the chase, and diving deep in so quickly because yesterday (my last day in the hospital), I wound up in an art therapy session where the assignment was to shade in a template of a cup. Upon shading it in, we patients were to write in bold colors things that would aid in our “healing and recovery” process as it is referred to in the hospital. It was in doing this exercise that I realize how vitally important it is that daily we “fill our cups.”

What does filling our cups mean?

Filling our cups simply means that we are nurturing and tending to each part of our beings (mind, body, and soul). It is so important that we immerse ourselves in truth and positivity, so that we may be grounded with the reality of the way things are.

What is the reality?

We can fill our cups and meet the needs of each part of our being best by drawing near to Christ, who is our reality. Yes, Christ is our reality. He is the only one who knows how to fulfill us and properly nourish us. He is the word and he is life!

I am—starting today going to increasingly incorporate more “cup filling” into my life by taking moments to nurture myself. Sometimes that will look like taking a stroll in nature to enjoy God’s beautiful creation. Sometimes it will look like simply having an ice cream cone, because sometimes, I just need a reward. Other times, that will look like inhaling Christ. Really it will be inhaling Christ, no matter what I do, but there will be moments when that is especially at the forefront of my mind and really nothing else. In those moments it will be an agenda, and will be an offering of consecration to Christ of this temple which is already his own, so that I can savor sweet fellowship with him.

Please, take this time to fill your own cup!! That can look totally different for you, than it looks for me.

The Podcast (👇🏾Link below 👇🏾) walks you slowly through an exercise of filling your cup. Play it as many times as you need, and think about what filling your cup needs to look like in your life in order for you to develop a more sacred, nurturing environment with Christ.

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