College has been no easy journey for me. I finished after five long years without the support of my family, and have battled mental illness along the way. The Lord has nonetheless “prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies.” Nothing has been able to stop me.
The Lord’s plans truly never fail and I am living proof of that. Right now, in 2019 I have not accomplished exactly all that I wanted to by this year and I do not have all the money I thought I’d have by this age, but I am surrounded by a community of people that pray and tell me things as they are. This has kept me grounded and allowed me to mature into the woman I am today. I know that the Lord is my strength and his joy has filled all that was once empty in my heart. I am deeply grateful that he has allowed me to experienced his cherishing and warmth through other human beings. The one that has stuck closest to me in this past year has been Natalie Mayfield. In the winter she payed for my flight to visit her family in Kentucky. She has taken so much time out of her life to laugh, cry and pray with me in the last year and has just been gentle as a feather and mighty as a lioness in so many ways. Without her, this season would not be as rich as it has been.
I am sad to report that none of my biological family expressed interest in being present at my commencement ceremony. The Lord gives good gifts however, and he put it on the heart’s of my first ever shepherds in the lord to be present and there was really nothing more I could have asked for.
“You have granted his heart’s desires and have not withheld the
request of his lips.” Psalm 21:2
I will forever look back on this day as a day when the lord shone his face down on me and kept his promise. I can remember being a little freshman intimidated at what this long road would entail. The lord whispered to my heart that I would finish, and eventually be a working woman! All is done. I have finished and with a job set to begin a a week from now.
I am still learning however to lay all my fears down at the altar. My guy friend Malachi and I are still talking and praying over our bond. We are not exactly certain where it is headed but desire to do all that we do according to the Lord. I am afraid of failure. I am afraid of making mistakes in our friendship and even more, I am afraid it will never go anywhere. I am afraid of under performing at my job and afraid I will never have a car. Although each of my fears are valid, humanly speaking, the reality of the Lord’s faithfulness screams louder than each of them as I continue to pass successfully through all of my trials. The lord is molding me into a courageous daughter. Ultimately, I am learning how to be a functioning member of the body of Christ.
“We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, to it diligently; if it is to show mercy, then do it cheerfully.” Romans 12:6-8
I have finished and have done so well. I am excited to begin working in an office setting, and while on the downside I will too often be bored, being in such an environment will allow me the opportunity to shine with the joy of the lord, and bring encouragement to my colleagues who are absorbed in the demands of the day and the stresses of life! May I stay rooted in the truth with my eyes fixed on Jesus! Praise him for this season! And I say to life: “Bring it!”